Hawaii.Beautiful Place.
It wasn't just the physical beauty that brought the inspiration to pack my bags and move. It was the beauty it brought out of me to move. Rather that beauty reflected upon others, I know not. But I can testify, that beauty never left.
Shortly before my scheduled move to Oahu, I received some unsettling news. A life changing surgery I had over four years ago sparked up an additional injury. The actual hardware supporting my foot severed an important tendon. I thought this to be ironic cause the very thing that help put me back together ended up hurting me again. This means: 1. No teaching or practicing yoga for several months 2. Money 3. A healing process of several months 4. Pro-long my anticipated school start date and move to Hawaii. The only control I had at that point was my reaction to the news.
My Reaction. It is what it is. As much as I want to control my life, the natural occurrence of events always wins. That is what I have to keep in mind. The current hardships and trials with either work out in the end or I have adjusted to the outcome overtime and have shifted my paradigm to believing those hardships worked out. This philosophy is what I study, believe and teach. Now it is the time to LIVE it.
Why am I touching this long forgotten blog? Because maybe this specific post could inspire or at least entertain someone else.
I have already accepted the natural chain of events. Accepting help from strangers, friends and family. My pace of life slowed down. I prepared mentally for what was to come based on the last surgery experience. The most difficult part for me was living the yoga when I cannot teach it or physically practice asana.
My passion for yoga is how I make a living. I have been feeling so disconnected from myself and questioning my capabilities to teach.
Tonight is the first time I have connected with myself. Just my mat, 55 min, chill music and dim lights...I created an available practice for myself. Mostly seated. Every movement and posture felt organic and lifted me up to a level of happiness I briefly forgot about.
Yoga is not the answer to all questions. However, in closing B.K.S. Iyengar in Light on Life sums up everything nicely with the following quote:
"Yoga releases the creative potential of Life. It does this by establishing a structure of self-realization by showing how we can progress along the journey, and by opening a sacred vision of the Ultimate, of our Divine Origin, and final Destiny. The Light that yoga sheds on Life is something special. It is transformative. It does not just change the way we see things; it transforms the person who sees. It brings the knowledge and elevates it to wisdom."
